Monday, March 10, 2014

THE 27 TURNING 28 BLUES ..

Im turning 28 next month! (April 17 to be exact. I'm expecting that you all took note of that date ya? :p) .. wait, 28?! .. Time to hit the panic button! haha! 

No really, how do I really feel about it? -- weelllllll, ya. im excited. its the late 20's baby! .. but on second thought, wait again .. now, that looks and sounds scarier than I expected! I think I really need to hit that button! Now! 

Ok. Ok. Calmmmmmmmmmmm. Let me start this again .. 

I'm turning 28 next month and being that birthday person that I am, well, im looking forward to it .. although this year, no matter how badly want to throw a big welcome to the late 20's birthday bash and invite all of you .. i can't. i won't .. because my birthday falls on holy thursday and there are no parties allowed on that day (for Catholics at least) .. but im not fussing about it, im actually prepared to close my eyes in deep deep thoughts on that day to think and pray and just appreciate and reflect on my 28 years here on earth. 

Not so bad right? After all, what better way to start another year. another milestone than with a prayer :) AMEN! 

Anyway. I wouldn't want to fast track on that yet as I would like to savour the last few weeks of my awkward 27's. Haha! .. I'm not kidding. It is really awkward maaaan!  I just realized that after reading a blog post about why 27 is a weird age .. and I thought only adolescents go through that stage .. but then you turn 27 and then it happens! Although you would never admit it because, well, your 27! A supposedly mature adult who has been through a lot of craziness in life already? Hell no! You've already gained super powers to fight off anything that life throws at you so, no, not awkward, not even weird. 

"17 reasons why 27 is the weirdest age" .. upon reading the title, I was "Really? *smirk! .. 17 reasons some more?> CMON!" .. Then, I started reading and from the "Really *smik!" I instantly went "mmhmm" followed by "uh-huh" "oh yeah ..." "oo nga nh!" .. "well that explains it" .. then by the end of the article I was sobbing, I can't believe after everything I have been through, I still have to go through an awkward stage. And I thought I am already weird enough to be even more weird .. er! Noooooooooooooooooooo! .. 
Haha! Ok. so just delete the sobbing part right there. That did not happen. I repeat, the sobbing DID NOT happen! hahaha :p .. but yeah. towards the end of my reading, i was going "OO NGA" in full force! My 27's was finally explained, whatever it was, is, will be .. 

I guess I read too much blogs that I seemingly get affected by things like this one, but well,  I guess not everyone will agree, will relate, will believe, will go "oo nga" full force too but im still sharing it anyway! My blog, my posts! haha! :p 

Her, click on the link and just read. It does make sense, even if you are not 27 and awkward and its funny and true if you are .. 
http://thoughtcatalog.com/jessica-blankenship/2014/03/17-reasons-why-27-is-the-weirdest-age/

Hep! So before you proceed and forget to come back .. my final thoughts first. The part where I play the part of the inspiring blogger (ahihi :p) .. Here goes .. 

So, 27. When asked to describe how it was .. well, I did not get pregnant on purpose this year, I have not even gone out on a real date, date for fox's sake! I did think I was going to die at some point until I brushed off the idea because I haven't met the one yet, so no, dying is not an option. For some reason I pretend to not know, some people still cant believe i'm 27! Do I act too childish? or do I just really look like a little lost girl? *sigh! after all the booze I can tolerate now? darn! change plans! Haha! .. On a more positive note, I reflected on the relationships I've had, the relationships I have, my career choices, my personal decisions and get ready for a standing ovation you guys because I am proud to have been what I've been through, that did what I had to do, that I truly loved/hated like crazy, that I took risks and embraced the changes, that I fought against self destruction and that even I still give the reason that "I am young and still figuring out things", well at least I am not an aimless mess who is totally not satisfied with my life. Yes, I kinda know some shit, not a lot, but some. 

So definitely, aside from all that and the mini and big achievements and memories along the way,  let me include, awkward and weird to my being 27. 

The good kind of awkwardness that is. That kind that makes you see the world in a different perspective, the kind that prepares you for the real late 20's and all the ooomph associated with that age .. and if it is that kind of awkward then I am proud to have experiences and surpassed it .. if that's the case then being 28 will be a piece of cake -- a 5-tiered cake. It may be overwhelming, it may be too much too handle but I guess there's a reason 27 has all the awkwardness and the weirdness and stuff .. because it prepares you for a grand 28 and in all aspects all will be well :) 

Now to all those who have survived this stage, congratulations! To those who have yet to experience the magic, good luck and I hope you get out of it alive .. and for those who are in the zone, enjoy whatever it is while it lasts, just for a year, turn it into an amazing story to share when you are 50 and reflecting of your life. 

You may now proceed to the article, thank you and see you again soon! 

As for me, I still have a month or so to have legit 27 feelings .. so to my family and friends, pardon the awkwardness and all the weirdness that comes along for the next few days .. If its not the birthday blues then its because I am still and only 27, I am not old! 


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